Saturday, April 09, 2005

couldn't help but feel lonely nowadays. it seems like ever since i left sac, i've not had someone to talk to.
steph is away in san fransico. i can't talk to her because of the stupid time lag. so whenever i'm online, she's not.
jessie is not in the same class, and i would think that she wouldn't actually understand my situation.
carlene is also not in the same class and she has her own group of friends.
so, i've no one to talk to in school.
when i come home, my parents are screaming at each other everyday.
and i so happen to not have any siblings.
so, when i come home, i have no one to talk to as well.
basically, i just feel more lonely than ever.
there seem to be no one in this entire world that i can talk and cry to.
well, there's always God, but sometimes, he just seems to far away.
and it's really hard to get answers, because sometimes he wants me to find it out for myself.
but i really don't have the strength to search for it anymore.
i'm breaking down, i really am.
and, i think my grandmother is dying.
well, that's my entry for today.
i think no one in the entire world is reading it. so it actually does not matter whether i type something or not.
but i guess it's still good to let it out.

p.s i loVe yoU
|11:49 PM|





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